This whole 10 year photo thing got me thinking.
10 years ago I was the grand old age of 20 and had just left the Devon countryside for life in Aberdeen to study politics and economics.
I alternated between restricting my food,and binging and purging. I had a wee phase of self harming and I had a very unhealthy problem with alcohol. In the grips of OCD,I was in love with a man who didn’t love me back,and I had a lot of problems. Constantly sad,constantly crying,constantly drunk. No self esteem and ultimately,a university drop out with no degree.
I’m now 30.
I’m still in Aberdeen,but not for much longer. I never did get that degree,but I have a better career than most of my friends who graduated do and I am back to studying for it long distance. I own my home and have a baby cat. I found a man who loves me and who I love back. Who doesn’t care that I’m sometimes still depressed and anxious and doesn’t even care that I’m now disabled and 20lbs heavier now than when we met. I never knew I would be able to go out without make up on and in my glasses and that actually,I like myself like this the most. I like how I look and I like my life.
I didn’t glow up.
I grew up.
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